Flower in the pathway

Normally, poetry and diary are my personal space. I don't usually share them with anyone, and as far as diary is concerned I think that is how it should always be. But I changed my stance for my poems once I meet a dear girl, who became a very good friend. We shared lot of interesting ideas and as we grew to understand each other better, I realized here is kindred spirit and felt that if she didn't understand my poems nobody ever will. So she was the first person to whom I dared to show my poems (dared because, my poems were my emotional expressions and I felt very vulnerable exposing myself like that to someone). And from then on my ideas for expressing my thoughts grew. A few years later, we both decided to write a blog together and then I started my own blog too. But still lot of times, I hesitate to share my thoughts directly in the blogger and therefore I tend to check, recheck and edit under the pretense of checking my grammar and spellings and wonder if I should keep certain portions, and most often I end up deleting. I think that  is unfair. But then that is me and I accept that nature of me!


During those long years that I spent exploring myself and feeling lost and confused I wrote a set of paragraphs phrased to resemble a poem. I called them 'Flower in the Pathway'. They dealt with my experience, with my views of God and through them I tried to express my relation with Him. It was one of few poems I showed my friend and she was fascinated by it. Her main contention was she was able to relate to my feelings or expressions perfectly to last single letter and we always sat and argued, discussed and explored those paragraphs and further beyond them. 


I guess that is one of the best part of sharing those entries with her. It let me grow beyond my points and see what other person saw in my words and that by itself was very new and rewarding experience. 


Recently, I lost the habit of writing, be it poetry or blog or even my own diaries. And felt it created a huge void in me. So I started writing to my friend again. She at once asked if I can share the flower in the pathway with her. Unfortunately I had lost them in all those shifts I made from one place to another for my job. 


The beautiful striking pink flower in the picture above is something I see carpeting the sides of the road in my area. Every spring (march-April), these flowers bloom in their glorious colors and turn the lush green pathways in to nice pink carpet. They make you look at them and I have always admired these flowers. Today, as I walked towards library, these flowers again caught my eyes and phrase 'Flower in the pathway' floated into my mind. I thought why not? I wrote those poems when I was emotionally exploring myself. Where am I now?? I guess not very far from where I left it then. So why not start writing again about the Flower in the Pathway. This time I plan to make them all sorts of writing: prose, poetry, blog ..whatever I can, be it even twitter post. I don't mind. But I think it is high time I started exploring myself again else I might lose what is left of me forever.