Weird thing called marriage

My Marriage was on 29th Jan, this yr..!! Its a bit surprising... I still haven't come to terms that i am married... i have seen it happen... to my sisters, brothers, cousins, friends... all of them getting married, having children etc.. At each of those occasions I used to imagine how my marriage would be..! How my partner wud be.. Even when my dad started searching for a guy for me I didn't realize the seriousness.. cos generally it is a long process in arranged marriages...so i thought i had lot of time to be prepared... 

Now as I sit at MY HOME and write ... I look up and don't see the tv stand (filled with wedding pics of my sisters) but I see a pic of me and my husband standing together in our reception dress hanging on the wall... it kind of changes my reality... I AM married.. and I am no longer in India but am sitting in some foreign country.. I have set up my home here with my husband.. and I would have children here.. watch them play, study & learn, grow-up and marry ...!! Its weird..! I remember writing in my diary a month after my marriage "I cant believe I have been married for a month now" but to tell the truth I cant believe it even now after almost 3 months of marriage... 

But I cant imagine my day without my husband coming home and asking me for a coffee either.. Its like we both have settled into a life where we are part of each other... and have come to that state of mind without even realizing... I have accepted his presence in my life... and he, mine...!! It feels gud to be able to curl up against someone... have someone watch u as you water your plants... be with some one as you clean the house... have some one who will listen to you crib whole through the night... It is hard to find a person with whom you can stay awake the whole night and talk your hearts content...  but best of all, know that no matter what that person is gonna be there whole through your life..!! He is your responsibility and you are his..!! :) 

Many say that arranged marriage doesn't make sense... i mean how can you give your life to some one you have no knowledge off... a complete stranger ... though i had talked to my husband for about six months after the engagement before marriage over phone, its still not like falling-in-love and knowing the person and marrying... I had only met his mother & father ... his extended family but never him.. "the one guy with whom I would spend my whole life....".. Though I knew in heart that i had made the right decision by saying yes to him... I still used feel scared.... fears & doubts .... but on the night of our marriage as I went to sleep with him by my side ... i knew for sure that i had found my love..!! :) and believe me it is such a relief...

At the end of the day no matter what kind of marriage it is.. I think it is the trust that is shared that is most important... it is what makes a marriage bliss..!! It makes the love grow and nourish..!!